And there it is.

(We had breakfast at a Kerbey Lane Cafe in Austin after Luke's doctor appointment. And after we finished our meal, the waitress told us it was on the house. It was just one of those moments when you needed encouragement in a crazy time, and God provides for you in a little, but significant way!)

Josh graduated on December 13th--just shy of 2 months ago. Since then, we whittled away at little dreams and hopes we had for our future. In those months, there were many moments of breathing in faith and breathing out prayer--believing that God held our family's future safely in His hands.

But. Like I wrote in this post, the waiting isn't easy. And neither is watching your bank account shrink, knowing that if a job for Josh didn't come soon, then we would be in serious trouble. I went back to work, but my job alone wasn't enough to pay all the bills.

Josh continued to apply to jobs, and we continued to pray and hope. Finally, an interview at a local company. And, then, another interview all the way in Iowa.

Just in time. Just when worry was becoming too common and discouragement was so near.

There are a lot of details, but in short, Josh took the local job. It's not his dream job or even in his specific engineering field. But, it is provision, and the job will still give him engineering experience. We are so thankful!

But, there was definitely a little processing going on over here when we decided that we would stay. It's not that we hate where we live or can't stand being here, but it's literally the last place we thought we'd be since there are really no jobs in aerospace here.

We thought we'd land in Colorado, or Seattle, or somewhere in the east coast. And, more than likely, we still will after Josh gets some experience under his belt and takes a job in his field.

For me, I was so excited for the fresh start and seeing where we'd be. I had so many expectations that have built up for nearly four years. So, when I realized that we'd be here for another year plus, there was a part of me that just felt stuck. Like you've seen the world in front of you through an open door, and then it just slams shut.

I can't say that this what what we were hoping for. But I know that believing that life would be better if x, y, z, is a lie. A lie that could eat up good things that God has for us here.

So, after a bit of time to process and pray and thank God for this job, I now feel ready to settle in and get ready for the purpose that God has for this season. I don't know what it holds, but I don't want to miss it because I'm wishing for other things. Do you find that it's easy to do that? Miss what's in front of you because you're so focused on the thing you want more?

So, there it is.